Last night I blocked everything. Didn't tell him anything. Erased all the texts. Now I am going back and forth. ONe minute I unblock him and wait for a message. then I block him. then I unblock. I accidently called his phone late last night while blocking him. Since I blocked him I have no idea if he contacted me or not. I know I have feelings for him and I am sure he does for me.

I am a very lonely person and have no one else so I wonder if I am making a mistake. Sometimes having no one at all is worse than having someone sometimes. I will be so lonely I will just look for another married men. I should just keep this one.
I don't know what I am doing! I am so depressed, lonely and miserable to begin with. I hate my life. He at least helped me a few months back when I was going through some issues. ughhh.