bebop, I am sorry you gained the weight... I struggle with mine too. I was 40 lbs overweight, but have managed to get rid of it. And I did it in a healthy way without purging or starving myself. I tell you this because I want you to have hope that things can get better. I do admit, that my losing weight was not really from a lot of exercise--I am a little on the lazy side. I had to basically snack most of the day on healthy things--no large meals at all--just small amounts of calories throughout the day. This kept my metabolism going and made it healthy because I was consuming enough calories. My diet lasted 23 months!!!

I really feel for you--it is difficult on the self image/esteem to be overweight. Please hang in there and keep trying to do what you can do...know that you are a good person--no matter how much you weigh.