That's a good question.

In the midst of everything, I found religion and had desire to become a pastor. After everything finally settled down and I was consistently in a peaceful environment, that's when I fell from faith. When everything externally was fine -- finally -- and I just couldn't find any kind of internal peace. Why am I stuck in this? Didn't I already do my time? Why can't I just be okay, you know?

I wouldn't say that my faith is entirely gone. It's just so engulfed in hate and anger that I can't seem to let go. Who knows, maybe everything will go back to normal if I can somehow let out all of this inner turmoil. I'm pretty conflicted, I guess.

How about you, Seeker?