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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967
I’m sorry you are having a tough time. Do you want to talk about it? 
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Thanks, Jennifer.

Although I went into some detail in a post that I just put up in a different thread, some details I left out in the last thread....
Since I haven't been sleeping, this could be throwing me out of balance big time. On Seroquel, I have gotten a few hours of sleep, but it took forever to go to bed, my mind kept racing. Then, when I went out, drank, and made some really foolish and impulsive decisions, it left me feeling really bad about myself. I have a hard time dealing with triggers in this state of mind.
Even prior to this incident, I have been more reckless and my mood is pushing into manic territory, maybe mixed manic with some cycling, but I am definitely not stable. The difference is that last night showed me just how out of control I feel. Luckily, I have some insight, but this doesn't always reflect in my behavior, if that makes sense. I have my pdoc visit on Tuesday, and it is actually coming at perfect timing. Things have changed quite a bit since last visit. I am a little nervous about what my pdoc will suggest, but hopefully she'll steer me in the right direction. Luckily, she is easy to talk to.