Due to a whole heap of circumstances that I'm glad happened but it has left me with absolutely no money. I feel really bad with the holidays here and wanting to get gifts but I'm not able to. It's on my mind all the time. I recently moved to a different country and don't have all I need for a 'real' job, long story, all my belongings were stolen and most all of it is gone forever. So I do the odd bit of babysitting but that's all I can do. I can't get government assistance due to immigration crap. I can't get the gifts I need to get for family here and I don't believe they understand. I've been asked if I'm saving money! How can I save if I have none!

I guess this is me doing a guilt trip on myself and yes we'll get through this. I'm not homeless. I have love and happiness here... I'm grateful for that. But I have no money. No car. No health insurance (No I can't afford it.) I know things will improve but in the meantime I have this holiday gift thing coming up and I can't do it.