that sounds so upsetting! I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I had my first episode of natural (not med induced) psychosis in spring of 2014 and it was terrifying. I started with a feeling that my brain was splitting itself in two and ended with the idea that some unknown person was trying to kill me by getting me to kill myself by implanting the thoughts in my head. I also believed people could read my mind and was terrified to leave the house. It only lasted about two weeks because I was already seeing my dr and therapist frequently due to a preceding depression. Since then I have been strict about adhering to the treatment plan laid out for me. I’ve had some bad depressive episodes that required ECT but no psychosis, until recently. About a month ago I went down the rabbit hole again and went off on the whole brains splitting/something outside me is trying to kill me by implanting thoughts spiel. I was promptly hospitalized.

I think the best thing you can do is just keep your pdoc informed of everything. If you’re allowed to increase your AP then do that. Also, practice grounding exercises.

I’ve lost my concentration so I’ll have to end here, I’m sorry.

Welcome to pc!