Thank you my dear friends for your loving advice, is very tough specially when Christmas comes around. My ex doesn’t talk to me, sometimes an email every now and then couple of sentences about where to see the kids. Etc but I see her my heart still skips a beat. Is so tough. Yet this new angel in my life is just a beautiful person, nice to have someone around watch movies or tv or read something together but in the back of my mind all these thoughts about how I loss my kids.