It's good to meet you Alice. That's my diagnosis as well. I don't have very major psychosis but it's definitely enough to scare me. Especially the horrible voice... can voices be abusive? Mine sure is. It's had me break down shaking and crying many times. According to my pdoc much of the psychosis is stress-induced, because I told him I'm often feeling tense and anxious before it comes. If that's the case with you are there things you can do to reduce your stress? Hard when a good part of it comes from the thought of the psychosis itself!