I've been told that I am a model patient. I take my medication and I go to therapy when I need it. I practice all the skills I've learned and I take my mental health very seriously. I mostly think that I do this because I hate chaos, I hate disorder. It's odd to have an illness that pretty much is disorder in definition and hate disorder. My control issues are what saves me I think, and my husband who is completely supportive and is pro therapy, medication, and treatment. He's talked me out of some really bad ideas and talked me into better ones.

Its not to say I don't have questions of going off medication, dropping therapist etc and I have had angry outbursts in the past but generally now I would say I'm a good patient.