I'm not good at baking. For Thanksgiving I cooked the turkey so I got through that part of the holiday. It's the gifting part of Christmas that I am struggling with. We have enough money for bills etc thank goodness but I know I'm going to be seriously embarrassed on the day. Family dynamics are that they won't understand about real poverty because they've never been there. Hey! I'm so lucky in many respects but this is eating at me.