It sounds like you're doing pretty well. Your last post seemed positive-I hope you can keep that up. You do sound kind of tired, or maybe it takes a lot of effort to push aside the thoughts. Maybe you need to rest and relax, grieve a bit more before you get to a healthy, positive place? You can do it.

It was a very positive move to quit seeing her, hope you can feel good about yourself for the strength and self respect it took to do what you did.

I know how difficult it can be to get in a good place. If it's held in, it can come out as bitterness or anger if left unattended.

Im still harboring those feelings with my T, though ive seen him a couple of times recently. Dont feel comfortable discussing with him...

Its so hard when they dont own their stuff or make any effort to make amends. Though with your T, its her loss as she never earned your respect. I guess im trying to say, please talk if you need to.