I'm not going to say anything to change your mind. I'll simply comment on my experiences.
A lot can happen in ten or fifteen years. At 18, halfway through the semester, I was hospitalized on an involuntary 5150 hold and came out a zombie. I was not expected to graduate, and my dad cried when I held up my diploma for the whole world to see. I went to the JC, tried out three careers that wasn't for me...decided to work instead of going to school...went through almost a dozen different jobs where each was worse than before, and it wasn't until last April when I found my calling, now I know this is a life-time career, and after all those years of write-ups and firings, I've gone almost 8 months with nothing but praise. My clients beg me to sign up for more shifts with them, my work blows up my phone with new offers, my bosses praise me and praise me and now I have gone from the worst employee in the world to the most valued and most respected employee. I have never had a boyfriend or a girlfriend, but I explored my sexuality, nad in those few years I've learned I have no orientation, and sometimes, even now at 25 I still question my gender. I want to love and be loved, but at the same time, marriage to me is not a priority, although yes, I do want to get married someday. I've lost friends I've known for over 10 years, but met some wonderful people I cherish dearly. Last month, right when I was discussing moving out for the first time, my house caught on fire and I lost everything. I almost lost my cats...I received a phone call that my cat Evy was dead. It wasn't until a week later that when I went to the rubble of my house and she hopped out of my bedroom window. I rescued them and brought them to two different foster moms who are taking great care of them. I now live in a house with three families. It takes a lot of adjusting, and soon, I'll be moving to a new home.
But what does this have anything to do with having children and tube tying? You have NO idea what your future holds for you. You don't know who you'll meet, what you'll experience, the jobs you hold, the friends you make, the people you date, the catastrophes and the joys. My life changed dramatically, several times, within 6 years. I am not the person I was when I was 18, and I wasn't the person I was at 18 then I was at 17. Life changes. Life is beautiful and scary and exciting. But YOU will change too. You won't be the same person you are at 19 then you will be at 25. I'm not here to tell you to do anything, you and I are two different people at two different periods in our lives. But I do have to say, don't rush into anything permanent. I have a permanent cover up tattoo that I must live with, and it's embarrassing I made a mistake and regret rushing into something without giving it a full thought...but at least with tattoos...cover ups are still fixable.
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