I'm feeling a bit annoyed because I have struggled so much over the past several days, really since I've been back home.

I'm still having a lot of mood swings, just maybe not quite as frequent as before. But still frustrating. I go from crying uncontrollably, to productive hypomania, to extreme anger. And I've been taking my meds very well. I know I can't expect a quick fix, but I was hoping my moods would get a little better, not worse. I try to read about the coping skills I wrote in my journal, but it all looks like gibberish. I've been trying to work on our meal planning, but can only concentrate for short periods of time. I know I need to go to sleep, but I don't want to sleep because I don't know how I'm going to get back into the routine of my kids being back in school, because I don't want to leave my house. I feel really down and stressed, and not coping very well at all.

Ugh. Why can't a hospital just make you "better"? I don't know how I'm going to get through this.