I’m sorry I keep apologizing Bizi (sorry for another sorry).......I recently said things on here I shouldn’t have.....I don’t remember what or to whom, I just remember the emotions running high and me bring snippy and snarky for which I feel ashamed. I’ve apologized to several people in my life recently and need to write a few letters to a few more people. I feel very ashamed and need these people to know it was not a reflection of my best self. I want to be forgiven but will accept if I’m not. I know I’m doing all this to myself.....I can’t stop ruminating on negative stuff. My husband is not pleased with how my brain is obsessing and I’m trying to do better. I’ve reached out to my doctors for help and have some treatments lined up so hopefully I will get help with all this soon. Thank you for listening and reassuring me right now. It’s more than I could have hoped for. I’m sorry I’m so needy right now.....I can’t talk to my family about all this because it would upset them and they have enough of their own problems. There is so much I need to talk about but I will do so with my doctors and therapists. Thank you for your kind words everyone. (((Hugs)))