I really feel lost and alone. I feel so alone, I am 44 and work two jobs. I keep trying to do everything for everyone else and cannot seem to get past the guilt I give myself when I want to do something for myself. I know it is a stupid thing to complain about. My family only seems to notice me if the house is messy, they need money or have some problem to be solved. I work all of the time, I feel that I am not worthy of anything or anyones attention. I am just lost in a life that I do not understand with absolutely no one to talk to. Cannot sleep, eat or make a reasonable decision anymore. I tried writing in a journal, but my husband reads it and tells his family my problems. They are my personal things and I really hate him for reading it, I really do not understand why I feel like the worlds biggest loser. I never ask anything from anyone and do not judge people, I work hard and have nothing to show for anything except this lost feeling