OK'ish, and learning. I don't diverge from my meds, nor drink alcohol.

otoh, I'm not terribly open with my pdoc and use a bucket ton of effort to look and sound normal during an appointment. I hate that anyone might see me out of control, paranoid, or irrational. I should learn not to do that, she needs to see what I feel in order to continue to keep me stable. Though apparently bucket ton wasn't enough to hide the mania at the beginning of the year so maybe its not a big deal...