Sweetheart, the BEST thing you can do for yourself is to end this. BUT that being said, the heart, emotions and head do not always match up. Your blocking and unblocking speaks to your ambivalence.

Just think of how you would feel if you were in his wife's shoes. Does that stop you???? She has NO idea of what is happening, and IF she knew, she would be devastated most likely. Do you REALLY want to do this and potentially hurt someone else deeply?

Please think about this.. IF you were his wife, would you want him sneaking around with someone else, lying to you and hurting you in this way?

You've GOT to think about your actions, and what you are doing here. You could ruin other people's lives! I do not condone your behavior, and I think it should STOP immediately. Affairs with married people are NOT respectable and hurt other people. I'm sorry for coming across this way, but I do not agree with it, and I think you need to really think about what you are doing. You are NOT thinking about your actions or the consequences. You're thinking very much about your own needs and desires and not about someone else's feelings or life for that matter. It's a marriage. Do you want to be a home wrecker???