When I was a teenager I had this love which I never thought it would have so much impact on my life. We were in a really short relationship if I can even call it that. We weren't compatible, we didn't get along, the only thing that was strong was the chemistry. He ended that relationship by ghosting me and I have never got the closure. In that time I was really hurt.

That was almost 10 years ago, but I catch myself every now and then thinking about him. We live in different cities and I haven't seen him for years, also I don't stalk him on internet. It's not that I'm missing him, or that I want to get in touch or even get back with him, it's nothing like that. I just want him to see me that I'm doing great and that I am happy, and maybe for him to think something like – gosh, she's so beautiful.

Today I'm successful, I am in a long term relationship with a man I really love, who is my soulmate and with whom I am going to spend the rest of my life. But on the other hand, I feel really stupid about lightly obsessing about this childish love that was a decade ago. In the meantime I had other relationships which were so much greater and real, but I guess just because I haven't got that closure I can't truly let go of it. I want to get rid of that feeling, but I can't really determine why am I feeling like that?