The people here are very kind and caring. You should not feel alone for long. Cross my heart and wish I'd die, I know exactly what you are going through.

This frog of little brain can only speak from experience (which I can't remember) but there are 2 things that may help tremendously.

First get to your doc or a pdoc and explain that you are not sleeping or eating and that it is impairing you ability to make rational decisions. Be sure to explain how much your family is depending on you. See if he/she can't give you something to help you sleep. You will be amazed how getting enough of the right kind of sleep makes things look a whole lot more manageable.

Second take time to do something for yourself. Get your hair done (even just having it washed by someone else), get your nails done, have lunch or a night out with your best girlfriend. Just do something for you. And whatever you do don't think of it as an extravagance because it's not. It is extremely important to your very existence.

Now, as I've said too much and I'm running out of breathe I'll close my little froggy lips.

Always feel free to stop by here. You a welcome at any time. You can vent, ask for help or just tell it like it is. We are always willing to listen.