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Mandy this is exactly what I am going through

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Oh, I DO feel for you. this is so awful feeling this way-- I so so want to feel someone has my best interest at heart- but-- well, it's not so easy for me to be convinced.

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For example, I know he sees people sometimes twice in one day or twice a week. I've heard the scheduling when I'm waiting for an appointment

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Yep, that is just what I did with the former psychologist I'd seen.... it's so upsetting, isn't it.

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I feel I need a safer environment with him and plan to talk to him about this wednesday.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> OH! this is big for you, I bet! I wish for you that it goes well-- please let me know- k?

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It all just hurts so much and sometimes it is unbearable to continue somehow I do that though...I ramble on.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Yes, it does hurt and is so scary for me. Been hurt so so much, I dearly feel if I'm betrayed anymore I will do something drastic.
It's good that you continue through the struggle... I admire you for that. I seem to only take so much and then I flee-- I can't do that this time-- I've made a deal with myself that this is THE last T. for me, if I can't get beyond my struggles this time....... think I'll surrender.

Thank you almeda24fan, I hope all goes well for you on Wednesday.

mandy