I already told my closest friend but i need support. I thought i was feeling better, but some things are lingering.

I had thought all the scary thoughts were gone because, well, I haven't been scared and obsessing over them. So I told my t this morning that I was doing better since Sunday which is when I started getting relief. The thoughts are getting louder now. I know it was stupid not to tell him I had had a few scary thought this am but I really thought I was better. Stupid me.

I used to see this t in the past for about 9 months but we never got into deep therapy and now Ive been seeing him for a few months I guess. I trust him but not as much as I did my former t, yet anyway. I trust him now more than I did at first but its difficult for me to trust sometimes. Im working on it. I am.

In the meantime I am just hoping this feeling of demons inside me controlling me doesnt get out of control. It feels real again and I cant explain it where it will make sense.


Im waiting til Thursday and if I dont feel better I am going to call my pdoc back and ask for an appointment and also email t about what I have done.

Im sorry for annoying threads.