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Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87
I already told my closest friend but i need support. I thought i was feeling better, but some things are lingering.
I had thought all the scary thoughts were gone because, well, I haven't been scared and obsessing over them. So I told my t this morning that I was doing better since Sunday which is when I started getting relief. The thoughts are getting louder now. I know it was stupid not to tell him I had had a few scary thought this am but I really thought I was better. Stupid me.
I used to see this t in the past for about 9 months but we never got into deep therapy and now Ive been seeing him for a few months I guess. I trust him but not as much as I did my former t, yet anyway. I trust him now more than I did at first but its difficult for me to trust sometimes. Im working on it. I am.
In the meantime I am just hoping this feeling of demons inside me controlling me doesnt get out of control. It feels real again and I cant explain it where it will make sense.
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Im waiting til Thursday and if I dont feel better I am going to call my pdoc back and ask for an appointment and also email t about what I have done.
Im sorry for annoying threads.
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Hope you find the help you deserve. You have strength in getting help. Take care. I'm so weak minded, don't deserve help. Or too afraid to get better. I'm gutless. You are strong! Hoping the best for you.