Hi. I'm sorry that I'm posting so much lately, but I've been so stressed and anxious lately. Basically what I'm gonna talk about.
I can tell that I just can't handle it all. I'm a freshman. I'm skipping classes, just completely not caring at all. You can tell that I'm just one of those people who went to college as an "only option". I was only excited about it because it meant going away from the toxic thing I called home. Some people miss their family, but I've never been happier to get away. However, I'm also wasting money, as I don't want to be here.
I've been feeling numb, drained, fatigued, and physically in pain (constant headache). Literally my workload isn't much at all. 1 to 2 classes, 4 days a week. But I'm still dying and want to cry.
I'd have no where to go. I don't like "home", and I don't have money. I won't even get a job because I'm aware of my tendency to walk away when things get overwhelming. This is, all in all, my only option. I hate myself, and living in general.