This past Friday my boyfriend of 8 months told me he had been using cocaine for the past 2 months. He said that the man he is working for was/is supplying him with cocaine as a means of payment.

I had to break up with him. He has a long history of abuse. I don't understand why he would choose drugs over me. I guess that's where I'm ignorant. He also has schizoaffective disorder. He was hospitalized for a total of 5 months of our relationship. I visited him all the time. I drove him places. I encouraged him. People tell me I went above and beyond, yet it ends on this.

Maybe I should also mention that he has an 8 year old son. Apparently he doesn't see that his son needs a sober father.

So my question is, why? Why would he choose a substance over love, family, and health? I'd really like to understand what's going on in his mind to an extent. I'm hoping some of you can shed light on the subject. Thanks.