What is worse is there times she doesn't believe me because I'm not acting like what I'm saying. I have a very hard time expressing emotion to anyone cause I do not like to be vulnerable, so I shut down when I have to be with people. Even her. So when she asks how my week is I am honest and I tell her I was depressed this ad this day, I cried randomly this day, I feel hopeless. But it's all with a very flat affect and no emotion. I can see why it would be difficult for her. Yet the way she speaks, and what she says makes it obvious she doesn't believe what I'm saying.

Like sorry I'm not having a nervous breakdown in front of you of all people, but I don't even know if I like you as a person let alone as a therapist. So why would I be open and vulnerable with you?