i feel that people don't understand me as i am schitzophrenic and they sometimes use it against me and i need a weapon to help them see that I am myself, not who they want me to be. One old boyfriend of mine said "what are you, Schitzo? This was even before i was diagnosed and i can forgive him now because i really am, but didn't know it then. Maybe people saw it in me and I didn't know it?