Hello. It's great you're reaching out for support, and I am soooo terribly sorry for the struggles and stresses that you and your family face. Those are not easy issues to grapple with. I am glad you've found reasons to stay alive...... keep those reasons in mind always and no matter what. I don't have answers for you of course, but I do hope things turn around for you.... sending big hugs!!!! ((((((((((Hugs)))))))))) DO hang in there.