Could you go and see the Dean of Students or the school counselor, and get that person to email your professors? An RA? Also, as a really check, having taught college English courses, I promise you are far from the only one missing class. If you feel like you can get to class tomorrow, turn your stuff in, and be a presence , they might notice your absence less than it feels like. So sorry you feel this way, bc academia can be a pressure cooker, In the big picture, the last time someone looked at my grades in college was probably twenty years ago. I think of how I stressed over those grades, but really the difference between an A and a B isn't much .