I’ve been in therapy for 3 months and really like my therapist, but always have a huge internal struggle with myself about wanting to go each week vs. wanting to run away. Today was the first time I just couldn’t go. Last week I opened up more and I think I’m just feeling too vulnerable. Anyway, I no-showed but sent a quick apology email about an hour later. He has not responded and likely won’t. I’m really nervous about going next week. I thought I’d feel relieved to not go, but instead have been obsessing about how he’ll react when I see him. Wondering how to make it easier to go back. Ugh.