I have been thinking about this from time to time and a lot lately. My question is: Is it possible that you can bring schizophrenia or psychosis on yourself? I mean things you did and thought in the past can cause it without you knowing that it could happen.

I know its not all my fault but I feel like I could have possibly brought it on to myself. I went through different phases of how I thought in the past 4 or 5 years and my whole life. In some of my phases I wished god could take me away from this world and bring me into a cartoon world and I wished that I could stay there. I prayed that I didnt die but that I could just be turned into a different reality, and now I am but its not what I wished for. In that phase of my life I was very alone and spent most of my time by myself in the dark so I needed friends since I didnt like anyone in this world, and my friends all seemed like they all changed and I didnt.

Another thing that I did is take drugs to take me to a different better reality. I went through a phase where I smoked weed and tried a couple different things to get high, but I didnt do any actual drugs other then weed. I also spent a lot of my day getting as far into some TV shows and animes and things that would help me imagine that I could be in their world instead of this one. All of that helped for a short amount of time but then I feel like I completely lost myself its hard to explain but I didnt even like those things anymore and I was permanently in a dream world that was bad most of the time.