In session today, we listened to my 911 call, which I finally got a copy of. It was very intense in a really unpleasant way. I'm glad he listened to it with me. I'm not exactly sure what dissociation looks like, but I think I dissociated for most of the rest of the session. I felt distant and zoned out. I don't think I should have been driving when I left.

They also give you something called a Computer Aided Dispatch, which seems to be what the operator types in and some of the radio traffic during the event. They noted that I was "very hysterical" and at one point "having a hard time breathing". It shows which units (cops) show up at the scene. Apparently 30 different cops showed up that night.

My next session isn't until Monday. I wish it wasn't so far away. I need more support from him right now. I wish he would call to check up on me tonight.