My T allows 3 no shows before he would terminate.... most do not though. Unsure what your's policy is but hope you can work it out

As for why, I totally get the dynamic of wanting to quit, VS wanting to go... i've literally had this struggle weekly since June. I keep going though.... not sure why but I guess it's because he is the one person I actually enjoy being around.

Hopefully if it happens again, you can push the desire aside to skip and just go full force, the sessions I've dreaded going to most or had 0 interest in going to but went anyway ended up being the best in the end.