He actually has a 2-week cancellation policy (does that seem long?) so I’m fully aware that I will need to pay. I’m usually super responsible, respectful, etc, so I’m not really sure why I didn’t call him. Actually, I’m really embarrassed about it because I’m not sure I can explain it except that making the decision not to go was difficult and once I made it I decided not to let myself think about it.

I did actually end up sending him a longer email last night with my thought process around choosing not to go. He sent a brief reply saying that we should probably talk about why I chose not to notify him. I’m really dreading this because I’m embarrassed and really have no idea why I didn’t call him. I’m thinking it might have been easier for me just to have gone!