My girlfriend took today off to decorate the house for Christmas. Oh, woe. Soon the Christmas carols will toll incessanty & my misery will be complete. There have been years in the past when we hgaven't bothered decorating, but this year she wants too. I know I should just shut my mouth & let her enjoy herself, but I'm still feeling very much like The Grinch today. I also worry that there have been fairly significant bouts with depression in the past. One year I was hospitalized & it was probably the most peaceful holiday I've ever had...in retrospect, though, I was in no space to enjoy it. It felt so freeing treating Christmas like any other day, though...No pretense necessary.