AK, I have an unlying hormone disorder that causes facial hair....I also have been in my early yrs been told by a childhood friend (male) that he was always afraid of me more then he'd been afraid of another bloke..I am told that I have an "edge" to me that frightens people...unyet inside is love...I do not wish to be "fem" and find other "butch" women catch my attention...I think the "norm" for consitutes a woman is insane.....I just watched an advert for vitimins for women over 50 and the woman jumps up and says all women want to look smart..:-( ....I watched that advert in my black t-shirt and black jeans and stomach slightly hanging over the top of my jeans cleverly disguised by my t-shirt over the top LOL!... I do fear the edge I am accuse of having because that reminds me of my adoptive mother...the part of her I have internalised..perhaps my trying to rid myself of that is what others pick up on? ...oh I don't know and I aint got a %#@&#! clue where this reply is going now...of To T to tell her I am feeling fed up with therapy and dont know any better way of putting it and dont know why I am fed up with it..blah, blah, blajh
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