bad days or bad hours just hit me so fast and so hard and my world comes crumbling down and i feel like i can't and don't want to cope anymore...the memories are too intense...the dreams are too frightening....the tears are too real....the pain feels so strong..the wounds so fresh....the anger is rageing inside me....but all i can do is cry....for there is nothing...nothing that can heal me...nothing that can fix what has been done to me...nothing that can change it....nothing that can make it go away....nothing that can take away the pain......nothing....

and the only thing i have is my friends....

if i didnt have them....id be dead....because i already struggle so hard to cling to a reason to live....

my friends are my reason...they give me hope..the give me love....

all i wanted was love....and all i got was betrayal.........