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Old Nov 30, 2017, 07:37 PM
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Location: Corvallis
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Yes, even when I'm well I can tell that other's think I'm strange... even stranger when I'm not well. Like I've had sit downs with a boss before because she was like, what's going on. That was when I was having hallucinations... I totally thought I was getting it past them but apparently it was very noticeable. I'm usually pretty quiet and I keep to myself, when I'm up the energy freaks people out and when I'm depressed my negativity and irritability shine through very easily. People know I'm odd they just think its a personality quirk I think. Like when my boss sat me down she thought I was being totally disrespectful to her because she'd tell me to do something and I honestly only heard parts of what she'd say so I'd do something completely different than she told me. Little did she know I was distracted by noises, flashing lights, changing colors, seeing dead people, and going on very little sleep. I told her it was a medical condition and I was working on it with my doctor. She felt bad and I teared up. I hadn't realized how much it was evident that something was wrong. I also know that people think I'm off because many avoid me. I know I do it to myself by the fact that I am too distracted with avoiding chaos than their feelings or what they did last weekend. I usually try to limit conversations with people so that they have little evidence of my weirdness and then I talk to them when I'm well and things go smoother that way.
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