Being around people wears me out because I feel like I am using a lot of effort to appear normal. Sometimes when I have panic attacks I just have to spontaneously leave without saying a word, which I'm sure people think is "off".

Lately I've begun to just try to accept that this is the way I am, and trying to love myself for it. When I was in the hospital I met so many people who if I would have met 5 years ago I would have considered them "off", but turns out they were the nicest most empathetic people I've met in my whole life.

I think people who are different are people who have suffered, and they are special and worth getting to know and love. I would take pride in being a little bit off, because most normal people suck lol