New T seems to have a good memory, from what I can tell. She'll ask me about things from several sessions ago, or remind me of something that I said. I thought that *I* had a good memory, but she'll pull up things that I don't remember at all (but don't doubt are right).

I'm not sure yet how it makes me feel... kind of a little nervous, I think? I don't feel very consistent, so it makes me a tiny bit more wary when I talk... because I don't know if I'll feel the same way in 2 weeks, and if T thinks that the things I'm saying are actually stable things, rather than in-the-moment things, it becomes a bit difficult, for me later, to have to backtrack and clarify.

Old T... OMG. He couldn't remember things from session to session. He claims that he "remembers the big things" and I guess, he does. And he takes tons of notes - but then can't figure out what his notes mean (he once read me something that he had jotted down, and asked me to explain what it was supposed to mean!)

That definitely didn't feel good. We had talked about it, and I understood it was just how his brain worked, and not an indication that he didn't care - but it's hard to feel like therapy is a continuous process, week to week, when your therapist can't remember the stuff from the week before. And, it was hard for me - because I wanted to go home after a session, think about what was said, and come back and ask him questions (like, "what did you mean by this?" and "was there something specific that I said or did that made you think to say that?") - but he couldn't tell me why he said things the week before, because he literally didn't remember saying them.