So this morning I had my mammogram.

The technician asked, "Have your ever had HRT" (I knew she meant hormone replacement therapy.)

"No."



Feeling really embarrassed I said, "Maybe I should have had HRT but thank goodness menopause is mostly over."

On the drive home, I couldn't help but think compulsively about her reaction (she was sweet just shocked); yet, I have come a long way in my recovery. It was a familiar feeling of embarrassment verses deep, dark humiliating shame about what I had done.

I have been feeling so peaceful about it lately that I needed to be reminded by reaction's like hers that it is important to keep this part of my past to myself. For example, I have chosen not to tell my employer about my disability (I thought it might effect the likelihood of obtaining the job). Though I know telling is an individual choice.