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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
Sorry for a 2nd thread, but I'm having suicidal thoughts big time -- though I'm not even depressed or mixed. (Actually euphoric.) I just can't handle this physical agitation any longer, as it's driving me off the edge. It's such an uncomfortable, restless feeling that I've never felt before. I'm too revved up. Heart racing as well and thoughts zooming at a million miles per hour. I'm also not sleeping well, so I'm awake and dealing with this crap at least 22 hours a day. It's too overwhelming that I just want to die to get away from it all
I attempted to contact my pdoc a few hours ago, but I had to leave a message. No response yet.
I hate klonopin, so I don't want to take it. I'm afraid I'm going to hallucinate.
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I'm sorry you are feeling this way, energy and suicidal ideation is a tough one. Know that we are all behind you on this. Try distraction if you can- running, movies, music, cooking, anything to get your body doing something or your mind off of the ideation. I like to turn on techno loud and dance if I'm up, to soothe the irritation of needing to go go go.
I relate to wanting everything to go away and thinking there's only one way to stop it, I've been there. Think though that there are times when you don't feel this way, focus on those- they will come back as they always do. It's good that you are reaching out to us. We all appreciate you being here and being supportive and we hope to support you too through this. If you need someone to listen I'm sure any one of us would be willing to lend a hand.
