Ugh paper work and logistics... the worst. I'm sorry that you are going through such a hard time and that the red tape is preventing you from getting the help you deserve. It's really messed up! You deserve so much better. Take comfort that many of us have had issues like this and we support you 110%

I once had an issue where I was having moderate psychotic delusions and hallucinations. I couldn't actually speak with a psychiatrist for a month and a half because mine was on vacation/family leave (no one told me). I had to basically get all my help from nurses and on call doctors. It was a mess and I was lucky that I didn't lose everything and end up locked in a hospital.

Sleep is very important though. With little support I would consider bearing the burden of 11-13 hours of sleep if it meant I was with less symptoms and could actually enjoy the time spent awake. Over time the medication I take reduces my need for that much sleep though. It starts at 14 with a big increase and eventually it gets to 9-10 which is okay by me. Idk I guess you have to weigh what stability is worth to you. Would you rather be alert and miserable, or satisfied but tired. Also, everyone is different. If you are drowsy, sleeping 13 hours and not getting symptom relief then... totally not worth it.

Glad you are getting out and about, that's great! Keep on swimming through this, you will see the other side soon enough. Hugs!!