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Originally Posted by Aliceiw
Ugh paper work and logistics... the worst. I'm sorry that you are going through such a hard time and that the red tape is preventing you from getting the help you deserve. It's really messed up! You deserve so much better. Take comfort that many of us have had issues like this and we support you 110%
I once had an issue where I was having moderate psychotic delusions and hallucinations. I couldn't actually speak with a psychiatrist for a month and a half because mine was on vacation/family leave (no one told me). I had to basically get all my help from nurses and on call doctors. It was a mess and I was lucky that I didn't lose everything and end up locked in a hospital.
Sleep is very important though. With little support I would consider bearing the burden of 11-13 hours of sleep if it meant I was with less symptoms and could actually enjoy the time spent awake. Over time the medication I take reduces my need for that much sleep though. It starts at 14 with a big increase and eventually it gets to 9-10 which is okay by me. Idk I guess you have to weigh what stability is worth to you. Would you rather be alert and miserable, or satisfied but tired. Also, everyone is different. If you are drowsy, sleeping 13 hours and not getting symptom relief then... totally not worth it.
Glad you are getting out and about, that's great! Keep on swimming through this, you will see the other side soon enough. Hugs!!
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Overall I've been pretty stable. Just today sucks. Saphris makes me mad cause I sleep all that time then am groggy all damn day as well. I was on it for about a year and a half and that side effect never went away. I think it was just amplified cause it was mixing with the other meds I'm on. Right now I'm on lamictal, carbamazapine, geodon, gabapentin, nuvigil, and have PRN klonopin. I also take zonnegran for migraines, diclofenac and soma for back pain, dexilant for heartburn, an antiviral, and am on the depo shot for birth control. I think that's it. lol. I think I'll just take some klonopin so I can sleep all the way through tonight. I hate doing it but it's the only thing that helps sometimes. I only take 4-5 klonopin a month cause i'm an addict and don't want to become addicted. Not a huge fan of downers anyways. Today is just a blah day. Tomorrow will be better. It doesn't help that my dad died on the 23rd of this month in 2007. It's gotten easier, but it still hurts.
I think tomorrow I need to get high asf and listen to deftones to remember the good times. It seems the only way the memories come back to me is if I do that. Life goes on.