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Old Dec 01, 2017, 03:57 PM
Monkey1111 Monkey1111 is offline
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It's not likely in expensive metropolitan areas and even if you managed to find a place in these areas it likely wouldn't be a safe neighborhood to live in. In more rural areas (or cheaper suburbs/small cities), it's possible to rent a small apartment or room with social security income. Many people do, and this was the intended purpose of the program, especially if you're getting other forms of assistance like SNAP. If you're in a cheap part of the country and/or willing to move, I'd say that your chances of finding a place that's clean and in a safe neighborhood are pretty good.

Unfortunately, your place isn't going to remain clean if you continue hoarding, and things could get out of control fast if you don't change your habits. And it sounds like your hoarding has caused you some pretty serious problems already. To be honest, living in those conditions sounds horrible.

While I was never a full blown hoarder, my apartment was an absolute rat's nest while I was in college and had a small apartment of my own without a roommate..... and honestly wasn't too far from crossing the line into hoarding territory. I didn't "hoard" intentionally or anything, but I simply DID NOT CLEAN ANYTHING...... hardly ever. The only time I would clean would be when my parents would come to visit. And even then, I didn't do much, just made things look somewhat more habitable. And as with your situation, it ended up causing some problems.

I rarely took out the trash. Perhaps once every couple of weeks or even less frequently than that. As a result, there were empty cans, meat containers, rotten food, and beer cans and bottles all over the floor. Not even in any kind of bin, just strewn around my place. The odor was atrocious, but I was completely "noseblind" to it. So, I didn't do anything about it or even think to. However, eventually flies began buzzing around. Which I didn't seem to pay much attention to at first for some reason, until someone at a party said something about how their "neighbor never takes out the trash and there's flies all over...... and were saying how 'disgusting' it was and how this lady must be 'crazy'". Then, I returned home and noticed that I was basically doing the same thing as what the guy described. As a result, I took out the bag of trash immediately but there was still a bit of garbage items (e.g. empty meat containers with bits of raw meat still on them, empty bags of fish fillets, beer cans and bottles, and fast food wrappers) strewn around in random places in the house. But I didn't pay much attention to any of that.

However, as time progressed, droves and droves of rodents began pouring into my place. Mice were literally everywhere, and my plates were often covered in droppings. In addition, as soon as I'd go to sleep, I'd hear the clattering (and occasionally even the squeaking) of rodents scurrying around on plates, on the floor, and even would often hear a "plop" of a rodent jumping into the sink and clammoring around on a couple weeks worth of unwashed dishes. Sometimes, they'd also get themselves stuck in the cabinets. One time I woke up in the night and heard squeaking, so I went to the cabinet. There was a mouse in there, trapped. I tried ignoring it, but the squeaking was too loud and kept me awake. So, I just let him out and he ran off.

Had I simply cleaned adequately, this never would have happened. However, the rodent situation got so disgusting that it was impossible to eat in my place..... especially with the garbage all over. Just thinking about having lived like that makes me a little nauseous now though, yet I didn't think that much of it. For a couple of weeks, I exclusively ate out because I just couldn't bring myself to eat amongst the rodents and garbage strewn around.

My appearance also took a nosedive. Because I would simply leave clothes lying around in a pile on the floor and do laundry very rarely and I was often unable to find necessary items for grooming, like a hairbrush for instance. So, not only was I living in a messy home but I also started looking very messy and unkempt.

Nowadays though, I'm a lot better. The key is simply staying ahead of things with simple stuff like doing the dishes right after you eat rather than letting it sit, getting rid of garbage every day instead of letting it sit around. Because if you "do something later", invariably you'll end up not doing it at all. It's all about habits. I also had kind of a thing where I didn't want to bother with the garbage and other stuff like that because of it being "dirty", although I never really thought about it that much. It was just kind of an unconcsious reaction that would kind of redirect my mind to other stuff and cause the necessary work to not get done...... because it was "dirty". The trick was to simply get myself in the habit of forcing myself to do it even though I didn't want to bother with it. Because if you don't, you're whole existence becomes surrounded by "dirty" things instead of just handling them for a brief moment.
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