I hope you find your way. I have two sisters with bipolar two. They don’t take meds just smoke weed. One is a nervous reck and the other can’t hold down the same job too long and constantly moves. Now she has a baby so this should be interesting. I had a good friend that does not take meds. She sub teaches only thing is she just works on her decent days. When she’s going through a tough period she does not register to work. She’s always stressed about bills. I would love to not take meds. I’m on two and tapering off a third. I do not like taking meds but I think about the “full blown manic” me. I completely believe in my bipolar one diagnoses. No one can make you take meds. That’s a decision that is up to you. Good luck.