what a great statement krazibean! Do you know my T?! ARE you my T?! haha

Mckell... try just writing it down, the specifics i mean, just for you. Think hard about how you feel. Then try to talk to T about that... how you felt writing about it. It's kinda a side step you know?

we lie to ourselves in so many ways, and so convincingly too... it makes it very hard to know what we need to deal with and what we don't... when are we ok with something and when is it a clever disguise? T said knowing i lie to myself was an important insight. The only ways i know of to find out right now is to write about it and/or bring it up in T... dump it all out and see what happens.