Oh xRavenx, my heart goes out to you...
They are straight up wrong in saying "just get over it". You know this, yes? You are entitled to grieve, and that takes time. As much as you need. It sucks that you didn't find out for months. I had that happen once too, and I feel your pain on that. It's a sucky feeling. Well, feelings. It brings up quite a few...

I'm sorry other issues are piling on for you. Isn't that the way? Mean ol' brain. Do you have some CBT or DBT you can throw at that?

In this moment, what to do... what appeals? Dvds? Music? Puzzles? Coloring? Bath?

You are in my thoughts....Much