hi Raceka! saw this and wanted to respond...

ive been dx'd clinically depressed... i think there was more, but, chances and fate left me without a complete dx...

as i'm discovering more, and as my situation continues to unfold, i find terms which i believe apply to the experiences i've had...

one of those terms is 'psychotic episode' ...

to that i have to add... ive been reading another members posts and finding a lot of corelation... look in the schizophrenia and psyhcosis forum for more info?

the story i have to tell is long and complicated, and confusing, both for me to express, and for others to read...

the psychotic events occured in a way that makes me think they were a deeper response to an initial depression that itself continued to deepen as time passed...

by psychotic i mean an experience beyond normal experience... an experience of proportion that it nearly falls into many sub-labels such as bi-polar, anxiety, schizophrenia, depression, etc...

the duration of the episod itself for me has been short, but its effects are long lasting...

ive seen the entire experience as a journey to self discovery and self-realization... at times the experience has been frightening and traumatic.... such is life...

i would like to share more... the topic fascinates and affects me in a way that at times leaves me exhausted and meditative... breaks are necessary for me...

hope this helps somehow ... take care and wishing you well...