Right now I just don't feel like doing anything. I don't want to do anything. I don't care. I don't want to care. I don't want to feel anything. What's the point. I'm so tired of this. I feel like, screw everyone. I just want to disappear. Not exist. I hate this. I hate me. Whoever the hell me is. I don't want this. Why did he have to try and be the rescuer. I didn't need rescuing. I was fine. So much for all the rescuing because where is the rescuer now. Guess that was a tough job to uphold. Uurrggghh I just wish I could get away. If I could just not feel maybe I could leave this place. What is wrong with me. Why can't he just love me the way that I need to be loved. I honestly don't even know what that means. Ggaahhh this is all in my head. Why can't I get out of my head. I don't even know what's real anymore. What is real. No one even cares. I just want to scream and break things. I feel like glass and I just want to throw me and break me. I can't. But I can hear the shatter. Ugh god I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to feel anymore. I'm so emotionally drained and so exhausted I just want to give up. I can't keep caring I can't care. How do you not care. He doesn't care. I bet if I died he'd care. Why does death suddenly make people care. It's too late now. Should have thought of that before. Maybe they are faking. Probably for attention. There goes the glass again.