today a marching band went past my window

playing songs and stuff... I am not sure what the event was, but it made me feel really left out and really depressed.

it's not memory based- I don't have any memories of parades, it's just... I suppose it's more ashamed of the person I am.

like.. I could have been in a parade, I could have been anything I wanted too, but i'm not and it's thanks to my dam MI, and the fact I've got no friends to invite me to things.

I want a private ****ing marching band now to play me some music.